~Jacqueline_Ch~

Yes… Who says US is a safe country? Maybe wat have been said is true - the "safest" place is the most "dangerous" place. In a way, i’m glad that I chose Bemidji cos it’s a quiet town & the criminal activities here ain’t so prevalent, or that’s wat I think. What i meant by dangerous is the DISEASE that’s been spreading around since I dunno when… Quiet a few of my friends have been falling sick recently.

… I stopped halfway the last time i was blogging about this & left it saved half way. Anyway, as i was saying, friends falling sick. The previous time we visited a friend who had high fever for almost 2-3 weeks & it got so serious that she had to be hospitalized in the middle of the night. Her fever was about 109F, about 40++ Celcius? It was kinda almost near "fatal". The doctors suspected her of having hepatitis & the results wont be out till the day after cos Bemidji’s a small town & there’s no other choice but to wait for the report to come back from the city. She looked pale & we all felt sorry, scared at the same time cos it could’ve happened to anyone of us. There was a whole big crowd in her ward. We prayed & wished her well. Now she’s all healthy & smiling again. Hoorah! Btw, it wasn’t hepatitis…

Another friend of ours got sick as well. She had high fever too. About 6 of us went to the hospital with her along with Mama & Kaitlyn. It was 12am at that time. The doctor made her eat some kinda pill & told her to wait for an hour to see if her temperature would go down. So there we were, all stuck & stranded in the hospital, waiting for her to be called by the doctor. We waited & waited & waited. Finally, they called her in at 2.30am. Again, we waited & waited & waited… By the she came out, it was almost 3.45am already. We were all tired & sleepy. But glad to hear that she’s ok. Just plain infection i think… She’s also all healthy now..

People, keep yourselves healthy for goodness sake! Drink more water… & Vitamin C?? Haha…

For no apparent reason, i suddenly feel down. All emotions just plunged to the bottom. I have no idea why. Maybe just plain homesick, esp after visiting friends’ blog page. Then again, maybe its just my hormonal imbalance…

Haven’t been in my best condition in the past few days, physical & mental wise. Weakling…

But! Yes, there’s stg to but about… We watched the last hockey game of the season & the game was rily exciting & worth watching. A little let down that the season has ended. We’ll have to wait till Oct for it to begin & we won’t be able to watch till the end. Ice hockey is rily nice to watch, esp with all the cheers we have for the team & of cos with the team so "keng", we’d be more than glad to support them as compared to the basketball team. Not that the basketball’s not good, just that they’re not as good as hockey. Also, the football (rugby) season’s coming. That’s another sport that BSU’s good at. Will try watching that game.

Was thinking about a "deep" issue this morning while walking to class. COncerns my future alot. Worried that it’ll influence my life later on, whether i like it or not. Hopefully, it doesn’t. I pray hard it doesn’t cos it’ll be a huge impact if it does. So wanna talk to him about it but just couldn’t get through. Sigh…

Heart’s heavy…

Long week ahead filled with quizzes & assignments. The lecturers just had to slaughter us with work before the spring break. Hell crap!

I miss home…

Life’s unfair! Life sucks!

Yes… I’m currently in an unstable emotion. Y? Thanks to the events & people in life.

Heart is welled up with mixed emotions - sadness, disappointment, anger… U say it, i’ll most probably have it! Whateva!

How come I’m not allowed to have the opportunity? I suppose they could clearly see through me that I was thoroughly disappointed but what the heck?! I’m left with no choice…

How come they get the chance when we don’t when what we’ve been doing for the past few days was to rush up & down, waiting for "it" to be there? What have others been doing? Is timing & chance all that matters? What happened to the effort put in?

Life is so bloody unfair!

It doesn’t mean that even though u’ve invested all your hardest work in, u’ll get a desired outcome. Who said so? Then again, who am I to think so? Why did I even bother thinking in such a manner in the first place?

F%^& B#$^%

Feel like bursting right now. Feel like breaking down right now. This may not be the most stressful moment of my life but accumulated stress is one of a whole big heck of deal.

Life just isn’t a bed of roses. It just isn’t… It just isn’t…

Go ahead, break down and cry girl… Break down and cry…